Three years ago, and aunt of mine, (my father's borther's wife) was diagnosed with cancer, since then it's been and uphill battle, with downhill moments, just calmer straight flat moments. Yesterday we got a call saying she's in a terminal stage, nothing else to do but just wait for her to pass away, they're even taking her out of the hospital, because there is nothing else to be done. She's practically already gone.

   It's hard to see, but it's only moments like these where one realizes for how many people today just might be their last, tomorrow will never come because they passed in their sleep or another quick way. It's different with my aunt, she's been struggling for the past few years, not living a life because life just might end any second, not being able to have that little comfort of taking life for granted, like we all do, everyday.

   People say you should live your life as if it was your last day, I dont like that saying one bit, that's what people who are afraid of dying say. They're so eager to get things done before they die, that they leave so many other behind, I'm not one to be pressured, I'm not one to be pushed around everywhere, to jumping out of planes, or having gay sex, all because tomorrow I might die. I take comfort in taking life for granted.

   I cant say I blame anyone for what she's going thru, I dont reject or loathe death, I just dont think it's fair on HOW she's dying, she's suffering too much, completely unecessary, if God, or whoever, is going to take her either way, why the hell make her go thru all of this??? I guess I don't know how gods work nowadays, but, like I said I said before, I really cant blame anyone, except the one with the power to end it.

Thanks for making people suffer.

Oh wait, now I'm taking all the good things for granted, ahh, comfort.

So one can guess that, in the days to come, my writings will be centered around this whole topic about Death, and not coming to terms with it, simply because I don agree with it, not with Death, exactly, just the means. Makes me wonder who in the world gets a kick out of seeing us suffer until we die, isn't it just easier, for everyone, just to let go???


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