"AS OF RIGHT NOW"

So the year passed and I survived, I don't feel
fully alive just yet, probably only half as dead.

...much better than last, as of right now,
another shadow over my face has passed,
I don't feel half as dead as of right now...

You can save me today, or just take one
more of this cat's lives, you can also be my
saving grace, holding that smile that cast
from up high.

...much more awake than last, as of right now,
another shadow has left my face, I don't feel
half as dead, as of right now...

You can keep me awake today, or leave me
at home for me to rest, you can also be a brighter
grace, holding that thought with a light laid upon
you from up high.