The Failure that I am.

   Look at me.

... this is me wasting away the best opportunity of my life.
... this is me disappointing myself.
... this is me showing the world I cant do crap.
... this is me showing the world I cannot side bones.
... this is me throwing my life away.
... this is me, not coming home if I fail.
... this is me disappointing everyone hat believed in me.
... this is me trying to act calmly about it.
... this is me about to break down.
... this is me not realizing what my priorities are.
... this is me not being all that I can be.
... this is me not BELIEVING I can be anything at all.
... this is me giving this program they're wost student.
... this is me not knowing what I'm going to do with my life.
... this is me not prioritizing.
... this is me not feeling up to par.
... this is me feeling intimidated.
... this is me tired of excuses.
... this is me so tired and only 26 years old.
... this is me writing this when I should be looking at fragments.
... this is me realizing I'm no good at what I do.
... this is me feeling heavier than anyone else.
... this is me exactly how I thought I would end up being.

... the failure that I am.

   If the worst happens, I'm sorry, but I'm not coming back. I'm not showing my face back there again.