···I thought I could change things, I thought I could make things right, I thought I could fix my situation, I thought I could stop disappointing.

···If I fail once more I'm going to lose myself, I am going to disappoint myself and disappoint you...

... and you...
... and you...
... and you...
... and you...
... and you...
... and you...
... and you...
... and I'm going to lose you...

···After all the search, after all this time, after all the lives I've had to sacrifice to find this perfect niche... I'm going to lose you.

···This life will eventually kill me.