After talking to people from both worlds; after sufficing my need for closure and peace I find the words form the most uncommon person, at least the person I expected it from the least just because I considered her a dangerous vessel for me to pour my thoughts in.
At least I know that in this issue, I'm right.
She said those words that not only surprised me but finally let me exhale that breath of air I've been holding for such a long time.
I've come to terms with what I've done; I've realized that what I did I deserved be it punishment or well-being, It's mine to take hold of and mold it into what I want.
"When your want from the day leaves to curse in your sleep tonight."
I'm cursing each passing day less and less; I had enough of kicking the shadows of every mistake that I have made. After so much explanation and doubt I forgot that I had done this for myself and my own peace of mind, finally something completely and utterly selfish; something entirely mine.
I'll be leaving sooner than I thought, probably mid-June if all goes well. I'm going to different places, even going so much out the way as to visit Nashville Tennessee and Charlotte North Carolina.
The road will do me good. I'll be driving most of the way everywhere. There will be pictures.
Oh yeah, that reminds me...
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