Almost three years

It would've been trhee years tomorrow; three years of one heck of a ride.

Unfortunately these pillars gave way with my biggest weakness; my biggest need. I'm too much of an animal for someone to love; I'm too neanderthal to be civilized. After almost three years we spent many hours saying how all the things that other people said would defeat us have only ricochet off of us. It's funny how whatended sabotaging this relationship was myself.

Sometimes I'm too much of an "average guy" to feel unique.

She'll live her life and find someone else, I know that; I know many that admire her beauty. It's harder for me because, well, It's always been like that.

I would've loved to see her in that dress she says she wore on her birthday though... she never wore a dress for me except on very special occasions. I guess I'll never see that now.

There's nothing much to do now really. She want's to see me one more time, she says she has things to say to me and I have no idea what. I don't know if she'll yell at me in anger; I don't know if she'll cry; I don't know what questions she will ask, all I know now is that she has things to say.

We'll see this weekend.

Years will pass and at least I can hope that a friendship will be rescued, all we need is to realize that what we were to each other was something to prepare us for something larger. She's been everything to me for so long though. I know we'll both survive this.


Cheers to you Gorgeous.

Be happy; be a readhead; be you.

Be a mad scientist.

Be free.