"I am Jose's enraged sense of passive jealousy."

I expected this to happen eventually and I'm not surprised. I wasn't expecting to take a certain amount of time or a certain amount of tries.

She is beautiful, no doubt about that, one of the most beautiful women I know, so it was perfectly natural for this to happen.

It's also perfectly natural for me to feel this way, It's my right to feel jealous because I decided it would be from the beginning.

I've been preparing myself for this since then actually, just waiting for her to realize what she is and is capable of. She says she had forgotten what she could do and that was probably my fault, numbing her into a comfortable, uneventful relationship. I've come to terms with accepting that I was pulling her down and keeping her from what she can really do.

I probably should stop reading her words but hen again, I need to know she's alright.

She can do so much, I think It's time she remembers all of that.

I'm happy for her.

And I'm jealous